I’m probably making myself  procrastinate just for the sake of procrastinating by writing this blog post. But then, sometimes, you just need to get the thoughts out of your head in order to move forward again.


What have we been up to?

Since last time? Still pedaling on the figurative homebike – as in, getting nowhere at all. Diagnostic-wise, at the least.

When it comes to health, it has kept fluctuating, refusing to stabilize for longer than a week, and not a single doctor has actually listened to my symptoms – and I mean, listened intently. Or someone would have started putting two and two together, as I have.

They do say Google is a bad counsel for medical issues, but then it’s also a source of information when you know how to use it. I’ve thus been Googling symptoms now and again, upon inspiration – just to see if putting them together yielded any sort of result at all. Well, I’ve been pinpointing a very plausible issue based solely on the most prominent and sometimes weird symptoms – like feeling exhausted at waking, throughout the day, and miraculously starting to wake up at night. Then there’s the stress issues, my sensitivity to small-screen light (think phone or Switch), hormonal imbalance, low blood pressure… 

It’s becoming more and more safe to assume I have an adrenal dysfunction. What sort, I’m not sure, even though low cortisol issues sounds most likely from the info I’ve garnered. Too many symptoms fit. So I’ll be discussing this hypothesis with my doctor when I see him end of August.

My guess would be that seeing an endicronologist would be the next step (especially as I never saw one in my fourty years of life, despite some other symptoms that point towards hormonal imbalance… but I just didn’t know nor realize). 

In the meantime, I balance things out with two vitamins B a day and a blend of adaptogen herbs that have been miraculous for my brain power. I also discovered that the type of screen I use close to bedtime makes the difference between next day’s brain fog or clarity – although I’m more tempted to say that my brain can no longer cope with multitasking. When I drive, I’m focussed on one aspect of driving and can easily neglect the rest (like checking for people crossing – I know); when husband talks to me while the tv’s on, my brain fries and I have to shut either one up; and when I play on the Switch while watching/listening to series, I likely put way more stress on my brain than I realize.

So, it’s safe to say something’s up with my brain power/chemistry. I dearly hope my doctor will think the same way.


But all is not dark!

It never is. Since taking the adaptogen plant supplement, I’ve been able to write again. I’ve been working on several projects, finishing things here and there, most notably the story Fragments of Selessannea’s memories! Which I intend to self-pub in the near-ish future, hopefully still 2021, but at this time it depends on my alpha readers having time to help out.

I’ve also been drawing a bit again, completing a trade with my good friend Athena of her character Morana.

And where are we heading?

The sky is the limit, as they say! For now, I’ll keep working on two main projects, Devon and Sorasiehn’s story, and Fates.

And yes I still plan to revive Did You Know, but shh, getting there slowly.

Noct, over and out!


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